H2 vs. Marauder

This is a Hummer. A H2 if you want to get technical. This is the vehicle I drive every day. It gets 9.4 MPG. Gas cost roughly $3.60 a gallon. Wondering why I have a H2? Let me explain...... 

When I was in High School & got my drivers license my parents had a Toyota Highlander, which meant I was going to get the Highlander to drive. I drove it all through High School, & for Graduation I wanted a new car. My parents traded in the Highlander & I got the car I wanted.

This beauty right here, this is Sierra - Sierra the 2010 Scion TC. I got her for my graduation present. She had a sun roof & a moon roof! I loved her so much! I took excellent care of her; washed her, vacuumed her, & LoVeD her! I finally had something that I wanted that was MINE! My brother has ALWAYS gotten EVERYTHING he wanted. His 1st car was a expedition, then he got a Duramax, then he got a H2, then he got a Cummins. He never paid for any of them, he just got them handed to him. Must be nice right? But back to Sierra ; she was mine, not my brothers, or moms - MiNe!  

When I decided to move to Cleveland,Ohio with Duwayne I thought that I would take Sierra with me so I would have my own car while I was up there so I could get to my job, go to the store, etc. Well, Sierra was on a lease. Which meant I could only put 12,000 miles on her a year. So going back & forth from Cleveland to Georgetown would defiantly add the miles on her & per every mile it would cost some amount of money (which I can't remember right now). & being on a lease meant if ANY damage happened to her we would have to pay more money to fix it, & if you know anything about Cleveland, you know they get a crap load of snow. Snow, ice, hail, all that lovely stuff that makes people have wrecks. So I decided to leave Sierra here at my parents house, & when I would move back I would get her back. Easy Peasy, so I thought.....

 WRONG!

The day before I moved back home from Cleveland my dad told me he was leaving.....but he failed to mention he was taking my car. When I got back home my mom had her Mustang & my brother had the Hummer. Robert decided he was going to go to Florida to get away from everything, so he drove down there in the Hummer. Me & mom were up here with 1 car. 2 months later Robert came back home & he got a Cummins*. Since he had a car, & mom had a car, I got the Hummer to drive. I totally LOVED driving the Hummer! I felt so bad ass! I'm usually never wanting people to look at me, but when they did in the Hummer I ate it up! Cocky? Nahhh - Happy :) 

I felt so safe in The Hummer. I was bigger then any other car on the road. Duwayne wasn't scared when I drove, he knew I was safe driving it. They are safe, 

The whole reason why I brought up The Hummer was because today, before Duwayne was leaving for Cleveland we were watching one of our favorite shows Top Gear. This episode was talking about the 

Marauder. 

 

Marauder--------------->

  

 

The Marauder is from Africa. It's a army truck. (Like the Hummer) It cost $300,000. Has 12 seats. The windows don't roll down, they just have little holes so you can point your gun out & shoot people. You have to get a background check to purchase one. It's a diesel, & it get's 31.5 MPG!

In the episode they talked about how The Marauder is 3 X'S the size of a Hummer, & all of the cool things it does & yeah. In one scene, they show The Marauder driving over 2 cars in the parking lot of a resturant. We all said how cool it was & I made the comment, "That's why you don't leave your children in the car." I don't know why I said that, but when I did Duwayne & Jessi* started cracking up! Duwayne made the comment, "After 4 years you finally make a funny joke!" Was that supposed to be a compliment? That's how I took it. I felt pretty good about myself. :) hahaha!

But back to the Marauder ; - if I could afford that mug I would in a heart beat! It's 4 wheel drive, there's plenty of room in it for your kids, it gets 31.5 MPG, & it's safe as crap! The PERFECT mom mobile! Even tho I don't have kids, & don't plan on it for A LONG TIME, that thing would last FOREVER! Duwayne said he's going to buy me one, so when he does I'll blog about it & upload pictures!

The other part of this whole post is to tell you that if you are thinking about getting a Hummer - DO NOT!!!!!

starting fresh.

It's been forever, I know, I know. It's been crazy. We moved into a duplex. It just sucks that we had to move out of the house we* have all of our memories in, & grew up in. It actually really sucks.....

I try as much as possible to avoid driving passed the house. But, it's kind of hard when it's on Main Street. Even if I have to take a different way somewhere & it cost me 5 minutes, I'll do it.

I wouldn't say that things are going great, they are going...good. I've been doing all I can to make everyone happy. I'm being the back bone, the mother, the therapist, the provider ; basically SUPER WOMAN. But of course that's never enough. 

I'm not trying to sound crabby, or not thoughtful, but people need to remember that I'm still a child, & I'm still in this whole thing too. He is still my dad & she is still my mom. I'm still in this. I can only take so much, & once I blow my top it's not a good idea to put MORE* on me. 

I'm trying to help people grow in this. Meaning, learn how to not rely on me for everything, how to find themselves, & how to be their own person. I didn't just leave with a suit case & have nothing to do with them. I still visit, talk, & do what I can. Even tho I still get called somethings, & get treated like I'm the one who left -  I still do what I can.

I need to work on myself, & grow.

On a happier note, me & Duwayne celebrates our 4 year anniversary yesterday*! 4 YEARS BABY! Can I get a Whoop Whoop?! (saying to myself in my head 'WHOOP WHOOP'!) Gosh, I am SO in love with him! For our Anniversary I made him a scrap book. Every year that we've been together, I make him a scrap book of everything we've done that year. I didn't have enough money last year/this year to get him anything, so I combined that year & last year in this scrap book. It's very cute, I must say! 

He got me The Lion King Trilogy. The Lion King is my FAVORITE movie EVER! Yes, I'm 19 years old, & that's my favorite movie. Don't Hate! & so, for our anniversary, Duwayne took me to the Movie Tavern* to see The Lion King! ANY guy who will take their girlfriend to see a Disney Movie for their anniversary date is AmAzInG!! & yes, he is amazing! 

Duwayne means EVERYTHING to me! We started dating our Sophomore year in High School, & are still together....4 years later! I don't have any doubts, or thoughts about us not being together, or wanting to be with someone else. He is my soul mate, & the one I will spend the rest of my life with. <3 He's helped me so much through everything that's going on. Bless his heart, I've been bi-polar but he sticks with me & tells me everything will be okay. I'm so blessed to have him. :)

* WE - Myself, older brother Robert, little brother Spencer, my Mom, & little brother Hunter.

* MORE - emotions, guilt, etc.

* YESTERDAY - 9-16-2011

* MOVIE TAVERN - A place that shows movies & you can eat meals. (Buffalo Chicken Wraps, Fries, Steak, Etc.)

L0VE.

love. such a simple word, but has so much meaning.

what is love? what is being in love?

there are many things people could say, but for me, love is everything. love is the smile you get across your face each & every time you see them. love is the feeling of security you have when they hold you tight in their arms. love is knowing the mistakes they've made, but excepting them & still wanting to be with them. love is doing the simple, little things for them, the little things that mean the world to them. love is admitting your mistakes, & working on them. love is wanting to be with them for the rest of your life, & just the thought of not makes you sad. love is trying to be the best you can, & if you make a mistake you work on it to make it better.

love is what happened to me when i met duwayne. he is my everything. & when i say everything, i mean it. we've been through so much together, & we both know we'll be together forever. <3

duwayne & i have been together for a very long time. almost 4 years in september!we met in 9th grade science, & were best friends. then at a truck pull our sophmore year we started dating. sure, we've had our bumps in the road, & have challenged each other, but it's made it all  worth it. i wouldn't trade it for anything. he knows everything about me & i know everything about him. i have a horrible memory, & sometimes it doesn't seem like i don't listen when i really did/am, & it kills me. i've always had that problem, & i'm still trying to this day to get a better memory.


i used to want to be engaged as soon as possible. i wanted it so bad that i kept bugging & bugging & bugging duwayne about it ; which was a bad idea. i now realize that good things come with time. & when it's the time for us to be engaged, it will happen. & i'm not going to lie - I CAN'T WAIT! i mean, i know we're going to be together forever, i guess just being FINALLY engaged makes it 10x better. does that sound bad?

even if duwayne doesn't ask me for another 3 years or 5 years i will always be with him, & love him, & marry him someday. i don't need a big fancy ring ; a ring pop would be just fine with me. :) 

i love my booskie bear so much, & he is my definition of love. <3

Changes.

Okay, you don't have to tell me. It''s been about 2 months since I've done this. I'm trying!

& what a 2 months it's been............

Before Easter I decided to move back home to Kentucky with my family to help out. Some things were going on & I knew I needed to be there. Friday was my last day at McDonalds, then Duwayne & I would head home. I talked to Duwayne earlier in the week about me moving back home. I didn't want him to think I was just moving back home just because, I wanted him to know that when I decided to move up there in December I planned on staying there in Cleveland with him until he was done with school, & I never intended on leaving. Well, the Thursday before we came home I got a call & was told that my dad wasn't happy & was moving out. My heart completely broke. I knew that things had been "different" around the house the past couple of month, but i didn't think this would happen. My whole world came crashing down. When I was growing up I was always told fairy tales. Like the Disney ones. Tales about how the princess found her one true love & they lived happily ever after. Stories about how after you get married you'll live happily ever after. Nothing would ever go wrong, & everything would be perfect. You would always love each other, & always do everything possible to keep your love going strong. But that's not always how it is, & that freaking sucks. :(

Well it's been a couple of weeks since I moved back home & it hasn't been the easiest. Emotions have been up & down, & I'm doing the best I can for everyone. I got my job back at the McDonalds I worked at before I moved up to Cleveland, & I'm training to be a crew trainer, then a Manager. :) It might not seem like much but it is to me. I've gotten a lot closer with my mom too. She's been doing everything she can for us (her children) like taking me to work at 4:45 a.m. every morning, taking Spencer to school, cleaning up poopy diapers, & even Rocky's presents he leaves for us in the morning while we're running late. I don't know what I would do without my mom. I love her so much.

I'm keeping my faith in the Lord, & I have the best boyfriend, friends, & family in the world who are here for me. I love you all so much, & thank you for everything you all do for me. <3

If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away.

Wow, it's been awhile, sorry. Let me catch you up on some things. I finally got a job up here. I'm a proud worker at McDonalds! I usually work mornings. Either 7-3 or 8-4. I like 7-3 because I get up when Duwayne does, get to kiss him goodbye, & be back at the apartment only a hour after he get's there. When I applied for the job I told them I couldn't (wouldn't) work past 5pm, because I wanted time for mine & Duwayne's relationship. Also, so if I had the weekends off we could leave to go back to Kentucky after I got off work. It's been working out pretty swell. :)


Well at work my job is front counter. I greet the customers, take their orders, & take their money. We rarely have no more than 2 people at the counter every 10 minutes, so I have a lot of time to "stay busy". Just like ANY other McDonalds, I have the group of seniors who come in every morning, & get the same thing. They walk through the door & I have their senior coffee with 2 creams, a oatmeal, & 2 apple pies rung up on the screen & on the tray for them - & I'm just waiting for them to pay.  They make my day! So far I've met a man who's met Elvis Presley's cousin, a man who plays in a country band at a retirement home every week, a Veteran who was in World War II : Iwo Jima, & a woman who is in love with my hazel eyes & my smile. They (with others) sit in a section in front of me & sit for hours sipping on their coffee, talking about whatever they can.

It got me to thinking about my Grandaddy Warring. Grandaddy Warring used to sit up at our local McDonalds every morning sipping on a coffee talking to his buddies about whatever they could. Just enjoying eachothers company, & not worrying about a thing. I sure do miss him. A lot. 




It's funny, ya know ; when your brought into this world it doesn't matter how hard you try not to, your going to have heart ace & pain at some time. You can go all your life doing good things, but one day while your at work you can get the news that your grandpa died, & your heart breaks. It totally sucks, I know it does, but that's a part of life even tho I wish it wasn't. It makes you stronger, a stronger person.




I thought about that when I was looking at the group of older people. I saw all of them laughing & talking & having a great time with each other. I thought about how their moms & dads had most likely passed away, but they still smile & go on with their lives. Or maybe they lost a brother, or maybe even their spouse. But they still smile each & everyday.

Like I've mentioned before I lost my Grandaddy Warring & my Gracie this past Summer. Each & every day I think about them, & all of our memories we shared with each other, & how I would give anything to be able to talk to them. Sometimes I cry, & sometimes I smile when I think about those memories, but either way it's still a part of life. Even tho I wish it wasn't : it is. But God promises that we'll all be with each other for eternity when we get to Heaven, & that's what helps me every day.


 & maybe that's what gets everybody else through everyday too. <3

The video below is called "If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away" By Rhett Akins. It's an amazing song, & so very true. <3

Hunter Sage Warring.

Hunter Sage is my brother. well, it's actually kinda confusing. let me explain - my older brother Robert was engaged to this girl named Amy. they broke up & about 2 months later she called Robert & told him she was pregnant. me, along with my whole family was excited/suspicious. excited - because Robert was going to have a baby! suspicious - because the time line didn't line up, because they broke up for awhile then got back together, & if she was 2 months pregnant, it couldn't be his. but we stuck with her, & waited patiently. Finally January 5, 2010 Hunter Sage Warring was born. Robert was so excited! he had prepared himself for holding Hunter, & being a dad, he was so happy! we kept Hunter for about 3 weeks after he was born. we noticed something wasn't right with Hunter. every time he ate, about 20 min later he would start puking it all back up. we thought it could of been his formula so we changed it, but it made it worse so we took him to the doctor. they found out that their was a hole in his digestive system, so that's why his formula wouldn't get to his stomach & came back up. but he had surgery & his stomach was fixed! YAY! 

a couple weeks later we got a DNA test, just to be sure. a week later the test results came back - Robert wasn't the father. it broke all of our hearts. Robert was so upset. he had it in head that Hunter was his son, then come to find out it wasn't his. we told Amy that Robert wasn't the father & she didn't have anything to say.....

Hunter stayed with us 5+ days of the week. just because Hunter wasn't Robert's didn't mean we weren't going to keep him. it's sad to say but God only knows where Hunter would be today if we didn't have him.....when we would go out to eat, or go to Spencer's soccer games everyone thought he was mine. they would look at me, look at Hunter, & have that look on there face like "oh my gosh she has a kid". i remember one time we went to Cracker Barrel, & i was holding Hunter. a waiter came by, tapped my shoulder, & said "CONGRATULATIONS!" it was quite funny, but he was just being nice. it didn't bother me, it didn't bother me one bit. 

also, i have a Facebook (http://www.facebook.com/morganwarring) & i have a album just for Hunter. i have all kinds of pictures of him. people who i don't know will comment on the pictures of him & say "he's cute! i didn't know you had a baby!" or something like that. also people who i went to school with will say stuff like "i  didn't know you had a baby!" if people ask me if Hunters mine i say yes, that's my baby boy. i always call him my baby boy.

so the months went on & Hunter grew. he grew in our hearts & in our family. i can remember Gracie smiling holding him, & being so happy with him. even when she was sick, if you brought Hunter into the room her face would light up. she loved that little boy like any of us great grandkids. 






i was there when he first started to smile too, i'll never forget that. he was laying in his seat, & we had a Winnie the Pooh figure above him. i walked over to Hunter & started singing "Winnie the Pooh, Winnie the Pooh...." & he smiled! it was awesome! i'll never forget that special moment :)

Hunter is such a blessing to me & my family. i was there when he was born, & i'm still there. it's amazing to see how much he's grown, & who he's grown to be. he has his own personality, he laughs, he knows who i am, he responds, he walks, when he gets a hold of my cell phone he'll hold it up to his ear & try to say "hello",& so much more. it's just so amazing. he's always in a good mood ; always smiling & wanting to play. he started walking a couple of weeks ago, & it made me cry! my little boy is growing up! yes, MY LITTLE BOY IS GROWING UP!!!!

                                                                                                                                                                                                i know i've said this already, but i just can't believe how much he's grown up! he just keeps getting bigger, & bigger, & before i know it he's going to be talking & going to pre-school! oh my gosh!!! it kinda makes me sad...but it makes me VERY happy. :)

Hunter means more than anything to me. i'm always gonna be his Mo-Mo & love him & try to give him all i can. :) i never knew that the love i have for him existed. but i'm sure glad i do.

i love you baby boy <3

Valentine's Day.

Yesterday was Valentine's Day, and Valentine's Day is when you show the one you love you love them.


The last time I wrote in my blog I told you all how I found out some news from Duwayne that crushed me, & I didn't know what to do. We didn't break up, we just talked about everything, & it was settled. Of course I'm still hurt over the matter, but I'm not going to bring it up all the time & hurt our relationship even more. He knew what he did was wrong, & I'm not going to keep bringing it up. 



I've been in love with Duwayne ever since we started dating, & our love has grown so much, & it's still growing. We've both grown as people, & we've both grown in each other's love. I just can't describe my love for him. It's beyond words! <3










Well anyway, back to what I was saying, Valentine's Day was yesterday. I went to the bathroom & took a shower, & when I got out I looked in the mirror & saw that Duwayne wrote me a cute little note in the mirror. 
It might seem lame, but it ment so much to me! i love those cute little notes that just say i love you, it means so much to me! 




After school he had to go get my presents & his hair cut, so I waited around for him until he got here. When he walked in I was on the bed watching t.v. & he came in & cuddled with me. We watched some t.v. & then went into the living room. He kept asking me if I wanted my presets now or later, & I told him later, but he kept asking so I went ahead & opened them.







The first thing he gave me was a card. The card was really heavy, well heavy for a card. I pulled it out & on the front of it there was a picture of a tower, like off of a castle, & the words " You've got me believing that love is real - but nothing about this feels like reality. "  Then I opened it up & the the chorus part of "Love Story" by Taylor Swift was playing - that's why it was so heavy - & inside it said " Good thing I like fairy tales. " That was the PERFECT card for me, I'm the first to believe in fairy tales, & Duwayne is my knight in shining armor. :) 

He kept telling me that I might not like them or something, but I would never hate something that he got me. He told me to close my eyes, I did. I heard a bag rattling & he told me to open my eyes, & when I did he was holding "The Aristocrats" Dvd (One of my favorite disney movies I've been wanting to put in my collection) I was so excited! I looked up again & he had "Snow White" on dvd ( another disney movie I love & wanted in my collection!) And then I looked up again & he had "The Rules according to Jwoww" book. Jwoww is a person of the MTV show Jersey Shore, & she wrote a book. I absolutely LOVE it! I LOVE what he got me! He knows me so well! & him getting that just shows me he knows me so well! Gahhhh ; I'm so lucky! :)

After yesterday I realize now that he really does understand me/know me. I don't mean he never knew me or anything, but he went out all by himself & got me those things. He knows that I love Disney, & what Disney movies I wanted, he knows that I love Jersey Shore so he got me Jwowws book, & he knows that I love fairy tales, so he got me a perfect card! He is truly amazing, & I'm so blessed to have him.


I hope all of you all had an amazing Valentine's Day!

<3