goodbyes are one of the hardest things i will ever have to do. i HATE saying goodbye. when i say it, i feel like i won't ever see that person again, thats why i say "bye" & not "goodbye". there is a huge difference. when i say "bye" i feel like i'll see them tomorrow or sometime soon, but when i say "goodbye" i feel like i'll never see them again.
Duwayne leaves every Sunday around 3 p.m. & each time gets harder & harder for me. he's my other half ;& each time he drives down the driveway to go back to school, so does the other half of me. i won't see him again untill Thursday night, & even tho that's 4 days, it feels like forever, & i absolutely HATE it!
i feel so lonely when he's not here with me. yes, i have everyone else here still, but their not Duwayne :(
i'll be moving up with him in 55 days - or hopefully sooner. i'm counting down the days untill i get to move up there & be with him everyday again.
i will never tell duwayne goodbye, never ever, because i will never have the thought of him leaving me forever, thats why i will only say bye.
he's my everthing & i just can't wait till were together forever. <3
i recently found out that my Grandparents - nandy & grandaddy - will be moving to their house in Florida at the end of this month. currently they are living in a senior citizen area here in Georgetown & paying to live there, & they are also paying for the house they used to live in - in Versailles. they're trying to sell the house in Versailles, but the economy is so bad they can't. they'll be moving down to Florida at the end of the month. the house in Florida is paid for & they only pay for the utilities, & that's all they can afford.
i'm going to have to say bye to them, & i don't know if i'm going to be able to do it. :(
it was hard enough to say goodbye to their old house in Versailles - the one that held every Christmas dinner, Thanksgiving dinner, birthdays, & Sunday dinners; the house that has held so many of my childhood memories- from riding on the lawn mower with Grandaddy, to swimming in the big pool every hot summer day, the memories will never fade from my heart, but it was so hard saying goodbye to that big house.
but now their moving all the way to Florida, & i don't know when i'll see them again. i honestly don't know what i'm going to do. :(
one of the hardest goodbyes i've ever had to say to was to Gracie - my great grandmother who passed away this past summer. i was on my way home from vacation when i got the news & i'll never forget it.
Gracie wasn't just my great grandmother, she was my hero, & she's who i want to be. even at such a old age she was so full of life, & praised God & prayed for every single person every single day. she's always in my heart & i think about her every single day.
i'll never forget the day of her funeral, it was held at the Church she went to in Versailles, & we went to many times too. & when i walked in i saw her laying there, so peacefully, & i knew she was there with all of us. after the funeral i walked up to her casket & layed my hand on the casket & told her that i loved her & that she willl always be with me. as i looked at her for the last time i touched her hand, looked at her, & told her goodbye.
this is why there is a difference in "byes" & "goodbyes" for me.
& you will never hear me say goodbye.
